But then I took Larry Moss's acting workshop in December. It changed my life. If every acting class I had ever taken had been of this caliber, I would never have doubted my need/natural draw to be in a classroom environment. I realized that, even in a classroom, I have this unneccessary pressure to perform. I don't allow myself the room to learn... to grow... to be there for no one else but myself. To be honest with where I am at any given moment, to use what I have at any given moment, and to not worry about the judgement of my peers or even the teacher. But most importantly, to turn off the judgement I put on myself. It's important for me to have someplace safe and consistant to return to, because as Larry says, "It's from the work that you get your fulfillment. Do the work, and the rest will come".
So I'm back to doing the work. I still need help with the "business" side of things, but the best place to find like minded people to help you with your own journey are the ones who are paving the way alongside you.